LIFE IS HARD. LIFE FEELS HARD AT EVERY GIVEN MOMENT. LIFE ISN’T THAT HARD: WE HAVE PEOPLE WHO LOVE US AND THAT’S ALL THAT MATTERS. EVEN IF THEY’RE JUST OUR FRIENDS OR OUR ROOMMATES OR MEN AT BARS THAT TALK TO US AND TRY TO MAKE US FEEL BETTER WHEN WE’RE DRINKING TOO MUCH AND DON’T WANT TO TALK TO ANYONE. BUT EVERYTHING FEELS OVERWHELMINGLY HARD TO ME. LIKE I’LL NEVER BE LOVED. LIKE I’LL NEVER BE HELD AND HAVE IT MEAN SOMETHING. OR ANY TIME IT DOES, THERE IS A TIME LIMIT OR A DISTANCE OR A FEELING OF DOUBT. BUT I AM LEARNING TO STOP DOUBTING AND TO STOP CARING ABOUT TIME OR DISTANCE BECAUSE FUCK IT ALL. NOTHING LIKE THAT MATTERS. WHAT MATTERS IS RIGHT NOW. WHO IS LOVING YOU RIGHT NOW. AND SOMETIMES THEY LEAVE BUT DON’T WANT TO. SOMETIMES THE WORLD PRESSES AGAINST YOU AND YOU END UP SAD AND LONELY. SOMETIMES PEOPLE LIE. SOMETIMES PEOPLE TELL YOU ONE THING AND MEAN ANOTHER. LIFE HAS NEVER BEEN EASY. LIFE IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE EASY. YOU DON’T DESERVE ANYTHING EASY. WORK FOR IT. NEVER STOP WORKING FOR THE LIFE YOU WANT.